Breast Cancer Awareness Month

My page and my Etsy are both thinking pink this month, in honor of my Momma! I miss her terribly! September was 2 years since she died. She had breast cancer in 2004. She was given a clean bill of health somewhere along the lines. She was checked out every 3 months and then 6. She had gone in for a check up in June, I believe, and told that she was doing fine and her numbers were in check. In 2007, she was told that she was just depressed and that nothing was wrong with her, even though she was dying of secondary liver cancer. I seemed to be the only one who knew what was going on and that really angered me!! That actually pissed me off, rather severely! I watched her deteriorating before my eyes. I was pregnant with my last child, whom she never met, so I was more emotional than usual, but feelings are feeling and I knew I would miss her terribly when she was gone. She left this world September 19th 2007. She was my hero, although she was not perfect. I still miss her sitting her typing about this!

My sister and I support a Relay for Life team. We are friends with a few of the members and one of them keeps a running donation open all year long.

In the month of October, Sandy at http://www.capecodconsignments.etsy.com , Kylie at http://www.browneyedgirl1489.etsy.com , and I at http://www.MoMmAb7.etsy.com are all donating a portion of our sales to breast cancer awareness, but more importantly it will benefit all cancers, since the Relay for Life support more than just that.

Let's stomp out cancer!

No child, brother, sister, friend, mother, father, grandma, or grandpa should ever lose a loved one to this CRAP!

If you want to go straight to the horse's mouth, please visit http://www.relayforlife.org/relay/ and show your support!

Getting Tired of This!

So, pretty much everyone who reads my blog knows that my mom died of cancer. I don't like it, but I am able to function through it. Now, this is what is really getting on my nerves, my grandma's brother C was diagnosed with prostate cancer. He is optimistic that it can be fixed, because their brother J has had and made it through the same thing. This is all well and good, right? Sure.

My mad-texting granny sent me a message this morning saying that her brother J has bone cancer now! I can not believe the timing on this! My Uncle C was really confident and now his hopes will be smashed and my Uncle J probably does not get any good news from here on out! I know that is not a rosy outlook, but I find that honesty is better than lying to myself and others, in most cases!

I also want to convey to everyone that I do not pray for magic, except for in Stellan's case and then I prayed that God would keep him here (because babies are not meant to be lost, in my eyes), but I do pray that God will do the right thing for the person and family involved. I also pray that God will comfort everyone involved and let them see the reasons that death is ok for their loved one. When mom died, I was sure that I would miss her, but that if she was only going to be alive the way she had been, I was ok with her dying. She had to go or be a sad shell of who she was and who she wanted to be and that was not ok with me.

I am just mad! Confused! Sad! HUMAN!

This Just Sucks!

I just read something on MSN about Patrick Swayze's battle with pancreatic cancer and it is making me crazy! I hate the idea of someone going through cancer--anyone going through cancer! Any type of cancer! Any type of person!

I hate it!

I hate it!

I hate it!

HATE IT!

I sit here with one tear down my cheek and think about what my mom was going through when she first figured out that things were not going to be pretty and after reading his story, I just can't even think straight!

I guess this is better than shutting down all together?! I am just plain PISSED OFF!