Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Wonderful Weather

We have been enjoying some really wonderful weather. I have been taking the girls outside and for walks every day! I have been walking 2 miles a day, nearly every nice day. I am looooooving it! I am so in love with every new sprig that I see and every bloomed perennial that I come across.

My husband and I were talking the other day and we are both somewhat befuddled by our new INSANE love for the ending of winter and all that comes with it! I don't ever remember feeling so in love with the nice days and sunshine, as I am this year. I am simply euphoric over the lot of it! It is almost a little crazy. That should come as no surprise to anyone who knows me, the crazy part, I mean!

I can't put my finger on it, but something has given me an absolute lust for life and I am loving it! Loving it! Loving it!

I hope you are too!

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Denim Blessings!!!

We were blessed today! Even the simplest things can be a blessing and I want to be sure and express my thanks! We were out walking with five of the kids when a friend's husband asked my husband if he would mind carrying a good sized bag of little girl clothes home. I said we could put them in the stroller and we all agreed that that would be ok. The stroller was weighted down on our return home, but it was SO SERIOUSLY worth it! YAY! Thanks again to the wonderful lady for thinking of us and thanks to her sister's twins for growing so quickly! ha!

Friday, March 19, 2010

First off, let me say, I am loving the sunshine! I love it so much that I am in the spirit of trying to make some new little clothes for my youngest girls.

Meeeeema is modeling a little skirt that I made for her and a shirt that I crocheted. Boog is patiently waiting for her shirt and skirt, or maybe not so paitiently!

This is a second little skirt that I made up really quickly, when I was on a roll from making the first one! So simple, so cute, so SUMMER!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Life and Death...

Today is my niece's birthday.

She would have been 6.

Her hair was nearly black and she had bright, sparkling eyes.

She would have been 6.

She had a sweet, mystifying smile.

She would have been 6.

She had so little time to live.

She would have been 6.

Who knows what she would have had to give.

She would have been 6.

Her life was truly a gift.

She would have been 6.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Some Happy For Momma B!

Playing monster with daddy!

First ice cream cone like a big girl!

Plumb tuckered out!

How is that for a happy post! Yay! I'm back! I feel like I have been so negative, but I really haven't wanted to be. I just feel like so much has been bad. Bring on the good stuff! Spring and new life are just around the corner!

Things Are Seemingly Getting More Normal Again, I Think?

Well, I think life is starting to normalize again, but I am not exactly sure.

I am just kind of creeping around all life's corners wondering what will hit next.

I am not trying to be a coward, but I am damned tired of being slapped in the face all the time!

I am starting to feel like every right turn is really the wrong one, in disguise.

I hope that this is not the new normal.

I hope things are going to be the way they should be soon.

I am looking for things to "look up."

I like the ride, sometimes, but if it keeps going the way it has been, I am going to look for a different one!

I have had it with all the despair and death and sadness.

I am ready for something good to happen!

Monday, March 8, 2010

Out Of Sorts, AGAIN!

I am getting really tired of feeling like I don't know what to think! Does that make sense? Well, it should! I am completely insane, after all!

It goes a little something like cousin, on my dad's side, decided that life was not working out for him, so he gave up. He ended his life. I don't know how else to say it.

The tragic side of this is that he was the father of one girl, with a first wife and the father of 4 boys with the second. I am really lost at the thought of all of these kids living with out their dad, but better yet, two of them are old enough to know what happened and why he is gone. It is very painful.

Children take everything to heart, so what message will this convey?

Don't get me wrong, I am sorry that he is gone. Judging from the visitation, there are many who are already missing him. I know I will be very sad every time I see the little boys, who all seem to look so much like their daddy, because they will be yet another reminder of him.

I feel for his siblings. I feel very sad for his brother, who was so lost and sad without him. His sisters were a few years older than him, but that doesn't mean that they don't feel the sting of his death. And, what about his many nieces and nephews? How will family functions work? The little ones who won't understand, but will ask about him anyway...what a shame.

And, if you are in the position where you think your life is not worth it, by all means, ask someone who loves you! Give them a chance to change your mind, before you do something drastic! PLEASE!

Life is precious, handle with care!

Live life like you won't get much more time.

Love deeply and truly, even if it isn't always perfect!

Rest in peace, Jack! May God have mercy on your soul!



Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Let There Be Light

We have light over the kitchen table, or where it will be anyway! It is getting more and more exciting all the time!

Do you see the bare concrete walls in the background? Well, they are not a part of regular part of the scenery. It is what our house is constructed of...concrete block!